Tagged with #trauma

Approval For My Anger & Deepest Desires

"I emigrated from Russia to London with my family at age 15. To survive the transition, I learned to project a tough, macho kind of masculinity that..." READ MORE

Sovereign Over My Body

"Before Orgasmic Meditation, I often felt as though I was performing in my relationships. I endlessly worried about the other person’s experience. I..." READ MORE

Healing My Relationships with Men

"My body was streaming with sexual feelings and I didn't know what to do with them. I hadn't had sex for eight years, since the death of my husband...." READ MORE

Connection Healed My Depression

"When I first heard about Orgasmic Meditation, it was 2012 and I’d been suicidal for six months. I didn’t dare tell anyone about my suicidal thought..." READ MORE

Healing My Deepest Shame & Trauma

"OM is about so much more than sex.  I need to start by mentioning sex, though, because I came to this practice in need of so much healing in this a..." READ MORE

OM Gave Me a Place to Grieve

"In my early twenties, I married a man who checked all the boxes that my mother and grandmother thought were necessary. That is, all of the boxes ex..." READ MORE

I See More Beauty in Life

"My father died when I was eight. He was a heavy drinker and violent toward my mother, and he left us with a lot of debt. My mom worked morning, noo..." READ MORE

I Could Relax For The First Time

"This is kind of embarrassing to admit, but the first time I went to an Orgasmic Meditation event, I didn’t realize what it was. A friend dragged me..." READ MORE

I Don’t Have to Perform Anymore

"I grew up in a household that was abusive by the textbook definition.  My parents were both alcoholics and addicts. My father was gone much of the ..." READ MORE

My Healing Process Required Me to OM Regularly

"In my marriage, sex was a traumatic, brutal exchange – for me, emotionally equivalent to violation. In order to relearn healthy intimacy and enjoy ..." READ MORE

Keeping My Heart Open

"For three years after my husband died, I cried every day. I had been with him for 50 years, married for 45 of them. From the time I was 18, I was w..." READ MORE

Rewiring My Ability to Receive

"“Who are these men?” I remember thinking, the first time I heard about Orgasmic Meditation. I was skeptical. My friend who was telling me about the..." READ MORE

Healing Around Racism & Trauma

"I am a Black woman. I carry in my DNA the ancestral memory of the trauma inflicted on Black people, and I have my own bitter, painful experiences o..." READ MORE

Love Myself No Matter What

"Throughout the course of my life I have experienced a bunch of micro-sexual traumas—boundary violations with my brother, sexual gaslighting from my..." READ MORE

Beginning to Heal My Sexual Trauma

"Before I started practicing Orgasmic Meditation, I had a history of childhood sexual abuse that had marred my relationship to my body. I couldn’t e..." READ MORE

The Power to Choose

"Most of my life, I had been trained to service men: by my father, and by society at large. I believed that my value was based on how I could serve ..." READ MORE

Learning Responsibility For What I Want

"Before finding Orgasmic Meditation, I had a prestigious job, was top of my class in graduate school, was a marathon runner, but felt somehow dry on..." READ MORE

From Digital Isolation to Taking Risks in Life

"I like to say that my life started at age 30. You’ll see why.I come from a unique background. My mother is from the highlands of Guatemala, and my ..." READ MORE

Connecting to Grief and Healing Sexual Trauma through OM

"When someone’s Orgasmic Meditation post popped up on my social media, I was eight months into a devastating grief. My daughter had died. Nothing ma..." READ MORE

From Burned Out to Loving My Life

"Professionally, I work with people who've had abortions. For some, it’s been a really positive experience. For others, it’s been really negative an..." READ MORE

Facing Your Demons

"If you have trauma, if you have old pain or grief stored in your body, and you don't have a way of releasing that or detoxing it, you’re stuck and ..." READ MORE

What does it take to be honest

"I’ve always been attracted to things that push the envelope.  I like to take on challenges that scare off other people. In the past, some of that w..." READ MORE

Learning Vulnerability Led to Healing

"I grew up in a very volatile environment where there was a lot of arguing and fighting. My mother seemed to pick abusive men, and her own anger and..." READ MORE

What My Body Tells Me

"Dread fills me as I'm walking down the street, and I see my mother's car parked up ahead at a gas station. She gets out of her car and stumbles tow..." READ MORE

Accepting Myself

"I was brought up in a traditional Chinese family with very conservative values. The number one rule I learned as a kid: if you’re a man, you don’t ..." READ MORE

Living in Full Color

"The old me was all about “production over feeling.” I got a real hit on achieving and accomplishing things and putting the latest notch in my belt...." READ MORE

Letting Go of the Big Ball of Stress

"It’s been five years since I started practicing Orgasmic Meditation, and so much has changed. When I started, I was working two extremely difficult..." READ MORE

Reclaiming my body and believing in my perfection

"When I finally broke through my judgment and fear around the practice of Orgasmic Meditation it was only because I saw a dear friend transform her ..." READ MORE

Reclaiming My Voice

"Despite the fact I already had 3 kids, I’d just begun to explore my sexuality for the first time when I learned about Orgasmic Meditation. I was re..." READ MORE

Inner Sensitivity Returns

"I don’t really remember how I found Orgasmic Meditation. But I certainly remember my first OM session. I felt absolutely zero in my genitals. It wa..." READ MORE

I Needed to Make Some Noise

"I grew up in a very strong, very Catholic Italian family. It was a boisterous, but tough upbringing. If you did something that was not part of the ..." READ MORE

Thawing Out and Recovering My Sexuality

"“Hey, let's practice kissing. That way we'll know how to do it when we get to kiss boys.” She was nine, like the other girls in the cabin, with a l..." READ MORE

What's Left Is Love

"When I was growing up, it was hard to build friendships with other kids because my father was in the Army, and we were always moving around the cou..." READ MORE

Coming Back to Life

"I was an out-and-out workaholic until I ran flat out of energy and spent seven years in bed, suffering from intense migraines. I had moved from Mia..." READ MORE

Permission to Meet My Desires

"I first discovered OM about 10 years ago, and what brought me to it was a desire to open up physically. I’m a bodyworker, but at the time, I was no..." READ MORE

The Sensitivity & Wisdom of My Body

"Before discovering OM, I felt so disconnected from my body after experiencing a traumatic life event. I felt closed and tight, and I badly wanted t..." READ MORE

Releasing the Trauma

"I experienced sexual abuse as a child and had sexual trauma in later life. As a little girl, my mom not only didn't protect me, instead she often s..." READ MORE

Finding Freedom By Listening to My Inner Voice

"I was five when I first saw the ocean, and – as my mom tells me to this day – I started sprinting towards the water the moment I caught sight of it..." READ MORE

Being Real

"My parents were kissing. My father dramatically bent my mother over backwards, and she gushed, “Oh, kiss me!” Even though I was only ten years old,..." READ MORE

The Healing of Hardship

"I can have my own experienceBoth my sister and I have a history of sexual abuse. Before OM I spent decades dissociated from sex and my body. My fir..." READ MORE

The Battery that Powers a Lighthouse

"I had miscarried twice before, but the third one broke me.  I was 20 weeks pregnant with a son, and I lost him. I remember that awful night in the ..." READ MORE

Healed in a way that I hadn’t even realized I needed

"Prior to our divorce. My husband and I had what I can only describe as a very big life. We had a seven-bedroom house on nine acres, a beach house a..." READ MORE

It’s All There for You

"I had a very clear plan for my life. I’d always been intensely goal-oriented and focused, and I had a timetable for when I wanted to accomplish cer..." READ MORE

Slowly Releasing My Trauma

"When I was seven, I decided to leave this world.  My father had died, leaving me with my abusive, mentally ill mother. She was terrifying, unstable..." READ MORE

Learning To Be Vulnerable To Release Trauma

"Raped at the age of 17, remnants of the trauma still resurfaced even after being married for 29 years. Guilt, shame, fear... trust issues kept haun..." READ MORE

I Exuded Joy and Light -- People Could See It

"I didn't find out until late in life that I was pretty severely abused as a child by my mother and sexually abused by my grandfather. I wasn't full..." READ MORE

The Power of Choice

"My early childhood life was very tumultuous, and I experienced a lot of childhood trauma. Sexual trauma was only part of it. There was also a lot o..." READ MORE

My Finger Stroked by Itself

"The jukebox was big and shiny, and I was excited to see it sitting there in the school hall. A parent had rented it for a dance to celebrate our ei..." READ MORE

Stroking Cultivates Intuition and Connection

"I'm big, and I'm loud, and I didn't find out until college that I am autistic. My childhood was very difficult. I was socially excluded and always ..." READ MORE

Shattering The Masks

"I grew up in India where love messaging is very confusing. My parents would punish me by beating me with a belt, all the while saying, “I love you...." READ MORE

From Codependency to Co-creation

"My husband and I tied the knot when we were very young, and we had been married for about 20 years when we discovered OM. It changed everything. We..." READ MORE

The Great Reawakening

"My wedding took place in a hollowed-out mini-amphitheater in the woods. I wore a dress of all the colors of the rainbows so no color would be left ..." READ MORE

OM Taught Me To Be Me

"When I discovered Orgasmic Meditation, I was working as a dental hygienist. To be honest, I didn't care for the work, but it sustained my life so t..." READ MORE

OM Saved Our Marriage

"I was always somebody who looked at life as a great big apple. I always wanted to taste it all – or at least as much as I could.Going back to my te..." READ MORE

Building A Base Of Trust In Myself

"I grew up in a household with a lot of physical and verbal abuse from my dad. He would sometimes cry and say, “I promised myself I would never do t..." READ MORE

Like A Queen On Her Throne

"Like so many girls growing up Catholic, I heard my mom say that sex was bad—a lot—especially if you’re a girl who likes girls. As a result, it was ..." READ MORE

I melted anger and numbness into connection

"Staying ConnectedThere was a time when the only way for me to survive was to numb myself to the world, not just mentally but physically as well. I ..." READ MORE

Feeling Safe Enough to Come Out of Hiding

"At the age of 40, I became a surgeon at a hospital in Oakland, California. I had come from a poor community in the South Bronx, counseled battered ..." READ MORE

Putting Me First is Better for Everyone

"I found OM right after I started to emerge from one of the darkest periods of my life. My husband was just recovering from a life-threatening illne..." READ MORE

Listening to My Body

"Between ages five and 16 I experienced a lot of incest. By the time I was older I learned how to stay out of hands reach and just not be home. But ..." READ MORE

The Hero Learns to Take Care of Herself

"I grew up an Army brat. Until I was twelve, my family moved all over the world as my parents were transferred from base to base. At one point, betw..." READ MORE

Learning to Receive What I Needed Most

"When I was in fourth grade, Katie Campbell taught me to put what she called my “wheelie” under the faucet while taking a bath. (Thank you, Katie --..." READ MORE

Unbroken

"Kids in my class were talking about a constellation. “It's the Big Dipper,” one of them said. “But the Big Dipper isn't out this time of year,” I s..." READ MORE

Patience, Presence, and a Greater Appreciation of Self

"I have been involved in the BDSM lifestyle for about eight years now. I got into it when I first separated from my husband. I learned about rope ar..." READ MORE

Transitioning Back to Female

"Although I was born into a female body, I lived as a male from the age of thirteen to my early twenties. To me, the feminine seemed to be an inhere..." READ MORE

Healing Self-Pity & Anger at Women

"I’m determined to write about myself in a way that isn’t self-pitying. Getting out of self-pity has been an important part of my work in recent yea..." READ MORE